My PUPCET.

So what’s PUPCET? For those fellas who don’t know, it is the Polytechnic University of the Philippines College Entrance Test.

It’s the 3rd Sunday of February today. the date of my PUPCET, Sta. Mesa, February 20, 2010.

So, it’s the examination day.I had to walk from the railroad crossing to the PUP main campus. Vehicles aren’t allowed to enter. It’s my first time on MY OWN here. So, I just followed the flow of the mass number of students, like me, who are going to take the entrance test. We have to fall in line according to what building we are on. I am designated at the North building.

 It’s 8:30 a.m. And after the loooong wait, the number 28 seat of room 508 is finally occupied. The exam started by quarter to 9:00 a.m.The administrator, if I remembered correctly is Engr. Jimmy Ocampo.

The exam flowed smoothly. It’s quite easy except for the numerical skills, 50 items. I hate it. I never like numbers since I started high school. The verbal skills stuff is easy, especially the spelling part. The science proficiency is not on my side. On the other hand,The nonverbal reasoning.. or the picture parts.. the very confusing one. I find it hard on some test items., that I had to rotate my test sheet over and over, and finally, leaving it all to eeny-meeny-miny-mow.

And well, that’s that. Really looking forward to this, please pray for me.

For the results, they said it’ll be posted by March 21. Just check the PUP site

I will not let my FEARS RULES MY LIFE !

For most of my life I was one of those who lacked confidence in every aspect of my life, and especially I lacked social confidence and constantly fear getting judged and rejected by others. I lacked confidence in my ability to make people like me, and if someone rejected me, I felt devastated for months at a time. I fear being rejected because I think I am not good enough. I fear approaching other people socially because

any rejection by others triggers a nightmare of cruel self talk inside me.

I don't know how to approach others easilly, how to make good conversations, how to make new friends, how to have a social life. 

Since I started high school I always feel rejected by my peers. 

I don't really have friends.I spend a lot of my time alone but I like it that way. I'm also a quiet person at school most of the time and I'm really shy.I don't interact with people much. I've always been like though. I am also not good at talking to people.I grew up taking my life too seriously. I take things too personally and sometimes get a little emotional for silly small things. I never had a lot of social experiences.

I have discovered that the people who lack social confidence and who constantly fear getting judged and rejected by others may have been born with a very sensitive nervous system.

When you grow up feeling very insecure, you constantly fear that any friendship or relationship around you can vanish at any second.

I feel there's so many things that are wrong with me..and I get really insecure around people sometimes. I'm not friendly and approachable. I will need to find courage to approach other people socially despite my fears. 

I know I need to take this step-by-step.

I will overcome this fear of REJECTIONS, SHYNESS and INSECURITIES sooooon !!!

I will not let my FEARS HOLD ME BACK !